faking it

I have a habit of pretending I’m okay. I sometimes create this whole other life for myself in my head where I feel completely happy. I realise I need to stop living with my head in the clouds. 

With everything that’s gone on in my life over the past few weeks/ months I can see why I have pushed these things away and imagined something different. 

I feel stuck, unhappy and lost. I’m not sure what’s going to make me happy anymore. I always try to look on the positive side of things but at the moment I sometimes struggle.

Everyone has a dream or a goal that they want out of life. Mine is to be happy. And I feel it’s about time that I start making some changes in order to reach that goal. Over the next couple of weeks I’m going to be working with my occupational therapist on what holds me back from life my anxiety. I might even share with you guys what we come up and what’s helping. 

Do you guys have any tips on dealing with anxiety? 




5 thoughts on “faking it

  1. It’s scary how much I can relate to this post. It’s scary because whenever I’ve talked to people about what I’m feeling, I’ve used the exact same sentences you have here. To be honest, I thought I was the only one who preferred to daydream rather than do something with my life. I was embarrassed to tell anyone about it. I know that there are other people in the world who deal with similar levels of self doubt, but I always feel like they are a lot more motivated to break out of that than I am.
    I hope you get out of that rut of unhappiness and realize how much you can contribute to the world. I know I seem like a hypocrite when I say this, but I wouldn’t want anyone else to be in a mental or physical state that I’ve been in.
    Good luck! I hope you’ll blog about all the changes that are to come because I’d love to read them!
    Girl in a Whimsical Land

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  2. Faking how you feel is something I can relate to. I used to and still do at times fake how I’m really feeling. Recently, I’ve tried to be more honest with myself and that has helped me tremendously. Anxiety is something that I battle with as well so I can understand what you’re going through to some extent. Lately, I tried some new apps and a couple of them have helped me either relax or keep me focused on achieving goals I set out for myself. I’d be interested in hearing how your occupational therapy goes. Good luck and I hope you’re able to achieve that goal of being happy! It’s definitely something I am striving to achieve as well so let’s work on it together 🙂


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  3. I always fake how I feel every single day. Sometimes the mask slips just for a second and someone sees, asks what’s wrong but the mask jumps right back on my face and a lying smile suddenly appears.
    I use the calm app to help me but also writing down how i feel really helps, it’s honestly the best app i’ve ever downloaded and makes my life so much easier

    lovely post,
    Daizy from| http://www.ZyaandDaizy.wordpress.com


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